18 MONTHS SOBER!

18 MONTHS SOBER!!!
I remember that day that I first walked into a meeting...I was so scared and wanted to run. I had no idea what was in store for me and I didn't know what I was going to do with the feelings and emotions I had bottled up for years.
The first 6 months were very hard...I was angry, frustrated, confused and cried. I didn't want to deal with the feelings and emotions coming out...all I wanted to do was grab a drink to numb myself...but I didn't.
There are days I am okay and there are days I struggle...but I have to remember why I walked into that meeting and I have to remember how far I have come.
I am an alcoholic and I CAN do this...one day at a time!

"MY WHY"...TAKING THAT FIRST STEP

BE SOMEONE ELSE OR BE YOU??? THE CHOICE IS YOURS

So many times I have been afraid of being me.  I worry about what people think and what people would say.
The "IF ONLY'S" would creep into my mind and I would try so hard to change to be the person others thought I should be.  I would focus so much on what everyone else wanted and what others were doing that I was losing sight of who I was.  I would get frustrated, angry and cry wondering what was wrong with me.

I would see what others were doing and tried to be like them...jealously and envy started to cloud my mind and all I could think about was what I needed to change about myself that would work.  The more I tried to be like someone else...the more I was stopping me from being who I was...my mindset sucked!

I am starting to realize that the only person I can be is ME!  I am one of a kind and a daily work in progress.  All I can do is be better that I was yesterday and keep going for my dreams and follow my heart.

I CHOOSE TO BE ME...I DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!

What do you choose???